Every time I go to Europe I think THIS TIME I am going to f–k a girl every day, I am going to f–k like 3 girls in a row in 5th Avenue or Manhattan, one after the other. But I never do. I hang back and prevaricate, and then they disappear with someone else and I never see them come back, or I get too drunk to move, and stumble home without doing anything. Will I ever do that wild rampant thing of f–king so many? Yes I really want to do this! Held back before by —–, then I got the —– but was struck down by the virulent infection breaking out again; could this time I finally be in perfect position? Oh but then all the girls I fancied in Brussels disappeared!