Every thing that afflicts you, leads you in dealing with the affliction to finding a cure that not only cures the affliction, but leads you to being much better off than you were before. You are forced to discover new ways of doing things, of living, which makes your life much better than you were, than you would have been without the affliction. My alopecia which was such a horrible thing to happen led to me buying the hair clippers and realising I can keep my hair as short as I want it every day, myself, permanently! My inability to maintain erections when drunk beyond a certain point led to me trying ——, and discovering how fantastic it is to have better erections than ever before and how amazing it feels as you feel it taking effect. The war that people unleashed on me in late 1998 led to me finally forming my first coherent body of work in Autismus, Lotta, etc. Finding my voice; the hatred raged against me was the Bessemer furnace in which I finally forged my writing voice, and gave me the eureka moment of discovering how I wanted to write.