And in the end, I decided I really wanted to stay here with mother. If I go out I WOULD rather just go as far as —– and enjoy a dance or two with ——. To be on that long all day coach journey taking me further and further away from mother, so far to get back from, would just make me unhappy. My place now is with her. I can go to Brussels ANY TIME, for the next 20 years if I want to. I feel happy with my decision. Though Eurolines were just £25! I need to STOP travelling, and save money. I need to build up a RESERVE of money now. That is my priority now. Brussels can wait till November or whenever. Feel happy with that. And Brussels is 32ºC next two days in a row. Unbearable.
Yes the way I live my life is crazy, insane; but fantastic! Legendary. Knowing I am going to be suspended without pay for at least 25 days and not knowing how to pay my bills, I go home and book a £189 Eurostar ticket and £150 hotel stay! And then don’t even go! Biographers will love this in 100 years’ time.
I was thinking in ——– today, this is just a blip, just a blockage. It happens sometimes in life. Then when blockage is removed I will EXPLODE into Inna, Mariana and anyone else I find in Brussels. So it is a good thing. Like Tantric sex, hold yourself back, then that just increases the pleasure.
Check all my accounts. That way the Eurostar £189 is not completely wasted, and the £190 Max hotel charge is not COMPLETELY wasted. And I will have 3 —– ready for 3 nights in 5th Avenue or Gare du Nord. YES! Five nights was too much, but now I feel why not? 3 nights is not too bad. Alternatively enjoy —— tomorrow, then go to Brussels FRIDAY morning on Megabus!!!! Friday night at least in Brussels and all day & night Saturday. Why not a 10 euro beer in Empire just to SEE Jennifer’s tits at least. Frankly an 80 euro (£60) —- with Inna or £40 —- with Mariana is cheaper than the £140 I spend in ——– when —– and —– are around. I have 150 euros in my pocket. Some money in my bank still. £80 in Nationwide. And in 15 days I get my paycheque. And HOPEFULLY I am working by then as well.