Haha let my legend spread, and let them spread it for me. They think they are smearing me, they are just spreading my seed even further and doing it for me, like bees carrying pollen to germinate the whole world. They spread my legend for me and make it sure I will flourish and bloom and blossom even more. A bad reputation is a good reputation.
Going through old computer shocked to find how many attacks I suffered every single day, still in 2004! Every day there were SEVERAL attacks, it was still absolutely non-stop ferocious, everywhere I went. They tried so hard! And still I rose, still I bloomed and blossomed. How annoying for them! So many diary entries locked up in those old files. A lot of pictures to take. Wonder if I can carry the whole computer to —–???????? Anyway it will be 5 years till my Fin De Siecle 1999 diary catches back up with 2004!
I wonder if I will ever meet someone I will fall for again? I mean EVER again. An —, a —–, a —–. Will I ever fall for a girl again? There is Inna at 5th I am attracted to. Adelina at Manhattan I was attracted to. Christ she WAS beautiful wasn’t she. Maybe she was just on holiday last time. I am attracted to —– it is true. HAHAHA how my exploits drive my enemies mad, even just wondering wondering wondering WHAT is he getting up to? Hahahahahahaha.
Coming to work for first time back tonight I did feel nerves but I also felt a great supreme confidence! Come and have a go at me! You feeble undeveloped people! Felt really powerful and happy. Two days of good work no doubt contributing. But I have got so much more to do. Really encouraged by my ruthlessness throwing away all those tapes, and all those old —– era notes. The more I throw away the better I feel already!
Important to remember they are the ones under threat. My very existence threatens them, knowledge of all the naughty things I am doing every day and getting away with. My worm is very successfully eating its way through their minds and souls. Just sit back and smile and watch it happening.
I am more beautiful physically than ever before. I have a better job than ever before. Earning more money than ever before. I am more confident and at ease with my writing than ever before. I already have 4 books up on Amazon. I am happier than ever before, more free of depression & obsession than ever before. So you’re doing all right! This is why their attacks are becoming more desperate again. You don’t need to do anything. Everything is going really really well. Keep on getting away with it.