Coming to work for first time back tonight I did feel nerves but I also felt a great supreme confidence! Come and have a go at me! You feeble undeveloped people!

Coming to work for first time back tonight I did feel nerves but I also felt a great supreme confidence! Come and have a go at me! You feeble undeveloped people! Felt really powerful and happy. Two days of good work no doubt contributing. But I have got so much more to do. Really encouraged by my ruthlessness throwing away all those tapes, and all those old —– era notes. The more I throw away the better I feel already!

I am more beautiful physically than ever before. I have a better job than ever before. Earning more money than ever before

I am more beautiful physically than ever before. I have a better job than ever before. Earning more money than ever before. I am more confident and at ease with my writing than ever before. I already have 4 books up on Amazon. I am happier than ever before, more free of depression & obsession than ever before. So you’re doing all right! This is why their attacks are becoming more desperate again. You don’t need to do anything. Everything is going really really well. Keep on getting away with it.

As always the funny thing is the more people attack me (and Christ look at how smart they look; do they have no self awareness whatsoever?) the more girls show their quiet liking for me

As always the funny thing is the more people attack me (and Christ look at how smart they look; do they have no self awareness whatsoever?), the more girls show their quiet liking for me, and attraction to me. Just in the last month there is the black haired girl on train, and the blonde schoolgirl, both giving me penetrating looks regularly before we get off the train at ——-. And after —-, there is now the Romanian —– coming on to me. And as I lose weight, I am just going to become steadily more beautiful.
All their vicious desperate attacks on me from October 1998 onwards and I just came out of it stronger, and more beautiful, and more serene, that is quite a testament to me. And to think I then experience such pleasures in 2003, 2004, 2005, 2006.