If I go to a strip club I look for a dancer I can find a connection with

If I go to a strip club I look for a dancer I can find a connection with. We look in to each other’s eyes and see something, a spark that connects us, and a way past the superficial. If I go to a brothel I look for a girl I can find a connection with. If I go to a pub I look for a barmaid I can have some connection with, i.e. immediately I go beyond being just a customer but straightaway we become like intimate at some level, and share confidences. e.g. —-¬†at Scotsman, Cassia at Porcupine, Ursula at Boadicea. I crave this immediate laser connection in whatever environment I am in. However, this does not mean once opening this doorway, I want to go all the way with it. I play with the personal intimacy I have achieved, but then leave it hanging. I have noticed this behaviour in myself. In the three places I spend most of my time, strip clubs, brothels, and pubs.