My life slowly, eventually, became pretty amazing. In a relationship with the most beautiful woman in the world, living with her for 3½ years. Now in the best job in the world you could imagine; my absolute dream job. Around that I travel to Europe several times a year for fantastic pornography and fantastic sex with the most mind-blowing beautiful sexy girls you can imagine. While writing and publishing my books, finally.
I should wear red t shirts more often, they look fantastic under a jumper. Especially on holiday.
Surely it is time for Hamburg at last. February would make sense, just before my DB pass expires (22 FEB). Should start booking some weekends off at least in London.
But us writers do, don’t we? Throw us sunshine we will bask in the sunshine, throw us rain and we will bathe in the rain. Throw us flowers and we will write about flowers, throw us shit and we will write about shit. Throw us your all-consuming jealousy and savage envy and we will write with great amusement about your all-consuming jealousy and savage envy; “oh! how sad! look at their poor twisted seething ugly little faces! As I go on enjoying all my voluptuous pleasures! How difficult for them! How I must torment them!”
What joy, to be sitting all on my own, writing, listening to classical music, Chopin. Earning £—. Now I can really start to make this money make a difference in my life. I’ve stopped the stripper doping, and the travel-doping (so much). Now this money can make a major difference in my life. This year has been a curious year, when I just tried to repeat the highs of last year but found Adelina gone, Lucy gone, and just nothing quite sparked. But it was a year of retrenchment, and realising some things, and putting some changes into place that should enable next year to really flower. I have taken out storage space and moved almost EVERYTHING in there now of value to me. I finally did something with Inna in 5th Avenue. I stopped eating at night, which saves me about £100 a month, and has seen my weight dramatically drop from a fixed 15’7 down to a possible 14’12. I have realised by giving up strippers and vastly reducing my travel madness I can gain an ENORMOUS amount of money. I am very excited about the end of this year and the New Year now, every month monitoring to see HOW MUCH I can bring my credit card debt down. The more I do that, the more mad I can go when I DO travel. 23rd October. Just 6 days till Brussels!
So today I will just pop to ——- for one beer then home. No strip clubs. Therefore nothing else to do. I was certainly hungry when I woke this morning, hungry for flesh. How long has it been??? I am using my time productively by working on The Double Life, and my chronological word document of ALL my writing even the stuff between my published books, even my diary stuff from old computer. That is invaluable work.
And weight down BELOW 15 stone! 14’13 !